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i just realised sth
i need friends
i seriously need friends

i hope when the next post comes i will show some improvement
and i'm posting something positive...

Here comes my new post after dono how many months

Well
i screwed up my econs.. seriously i screwed up my econs..
but yet.. i don feel anything..
i'm serious..
I DON FEEL ANYTHING..
that is wat freaks me out..

hey ng wenjie.. u screwed up your econs arh!! u know wat is the meaning of screwed up? means u will fail arh.. fail econs!!

but i don feel sad.. izit because i gave up??
i dono.. i dono wat's wrong with me..
i'm so worried but everything but yet i'm not making a move or taking any action to improve this situation..

why
why
why
why
why

i slapped myself almost every night to remind myself to wake up early the next morning.
but yet it's useless!!
there's actually no one to talk to cuz all they could and would say is 'don give up lar.. don be sad lar'
it's not doing any help AT ALL..
haih..
i felt so lifeless so aimless..
the books are all on my table but yet i'm not touching them..

i know
i know that everyone is now far ahead of me
everyone is well prepared
everyone is making their best effort to succeed
everyone is studying
everyone is moving on
but
i'm not!

I AM NOT!!

haih..
my head is empty
empty
empty

i dono y

i did so so much for law
i studied like crazy for law but once law is finished
i went '~~~~~~~~'
like a slug
i went so relax
i wasnt doin any practice for econs or maths
i rily hope someone can come over and give me a good slap

i dono when i will overcome all these.....
i just feel so so empty......